Doubt Vs. Determination

So it’s been a while since my last post (again)! One of my goals for this year is to keep y’all in the loop a little more. Lately, this little Lady has been taking up a fair whack of my time. Her name is Piper and we’re fostering her for the next couple of months. Having a baby in the house again is certainly a bit of a shock to the system – but it’s also beautiful and crazy and messy and wonderful.

In this post I’d like to tell you about an experience I had the other day at a local art class I attend. I hadn’t been to the class for a while so it was great to catch up with people. The organisers have been incredibly supportive of me in the whole book creative process; so I took some books along to show them the finished product. Out of the blue I got the chance to stand up and do a quick 2 minute blurb about the book. At the time, I thought nothing of it. I handed some books around for people to have a look at and got back to my art project.

Then people started coming to me. One lady with tears in her eyes. Each had just flicked through the book and something had happened. It had touched them. It had spoken to ‘that hidden part within’ which holds their grief and pain. Most importantly it reminded them that they are not alone and that there is hope. Throughout that morning I got to sit and chat with people. They hardly knew anything about me and vice versa. But we connected; and at a much deeper level that usual. I left that day feeling quite overwhelmed – in a good way. I had been reminded of the need each of us has for connection and community. I was saddened by the amount of pain that people carry – and humbled that they would trust me enough to share it with me. Above all, I was amazed by the power of this little book!

I think I had begun to doubt a little. Is this really worth it? Have I wasted all this time and money? That morning reconfirmed for me the importance of what I’m doing. My doubt has turned into determination. I’m on the right track. I know this is important. I’m not sure where this project is going to take me but I’m 100% along for the ride!